New Monk in the Making

Dearest J,

Well! Last week I started my New Monastic Order.

A few things I’ve noticed, someone shared something about having OCD and it really impacted me. I’m dealing with REALLY bad OCD right now, and anxiety. It’s also creating depression in me to a degree. That and also the other stories of leaving a totalitarian communist regime, the idea of being disillusioned with the idea of “illusion is everything” — and returning to Christianity which says that we MUST take action now because the world DOES INDEED EXIST.

I felt really good about it all. I felt like, as much as I feel like I might be in the wrong place, I feel like I’m in the right place.

I am going to return my extra copy of ACIM, and not buy new or more editions of reinterpretations of ACIM. I’m just getting tired of the Christian Science bit. I’m having really bad OCD about it, and the copies and editions. In a way, I feel like I need a BREAK from Protestantism, ACIM, and all of church life. I’m just annoyed with ALL of it, TBH.