9.11.14 - UnOfficial ACIM Anniversary

Dearest J,

I’m knee deep back in ACIM right now, back to lesson 74. And I’m realizing if I go back to my emails, I do believe I really “began” my ACIM journey on 9.11.2014. Which is crazy. That would mean this year is my 12th year anniversary with the text. Isn’t it ironic, that I remember being “saved” on 9.11.2020 for Christianity, and yet it’s really ACIM that began on 9.11.2014? It’s a little TOO on the nose, I think, with God. Maybe God’s laughing. But he’s having the last laugh I guess! IRONY!

I remember the day. I remember sitting on the grass maybe with only 2 other students, my teacher, my friend and myself. I do believe my teacher had recovered from a root canal that day and was going to cancel it but decided to do it anyway near her house on Riverside Drive at the time in NYC. I do believe that was the 1st time, we first wanted to go to her place and were in the elevator waiting outside and then we went back outside and to the grass and there they were. I think that’s what it was actually.

And I remember thinking, this lady is so pretty and everything and I feel like this ACIM thing is not going to be relatable. I just got over Hepatitis A at the time. And it was a near death experience kind of event. I remember when she’d say, when the student is ready, the teacher appears. And somehow the whole thing was about depression and I felt like, omg she gets it. OMG she actually understands all the stupid SHIT I think and feel about.

I in a way did idolize my teacher for quite some time, and still remember her as my idol in a way. But she moved to LA and stopped teaching, and others taught in her absence, who were other students who have studied the course for some time. But no one was quite as amazing as SHE was. She also did a follow up class on Zoom but cancelled them as people wouldn’t come after a while. And tbh, it was not the same. I think when she moved I agreed even to myself that it’s good I don’t idolize her anymore. But I remember going after each time and thinking to myself, this is absolutely INCREDIBLE. I even took my sister there one day, and she said it’s good for recovering Catholics.

My sister and I aren’t talking at all right now. She also feels 9.11 is an important day, despite the obvious. Just something else she feels about it.

So I’m mulling over all this as I feel like God probably has something up His sleeve. I don’t even know what “GOD” is to me right now, other than “isness”. And TBH, I was really late as well for my monastic order last week. That wasn’t my fault, it was an INSANE day, like that day and the day after, freakishly busy as I’m usually not busy whatsoever. Every meeting was just crammed into that one day. It was wild yo.

But wow what a time to get into ACIM. 2014, and now … I’m moving into it more so! AMAZING.

xo Fayth