Taxes and spiritual battles

Dearest J,

I woke up with a major headache today. I have a slipped rib, but I think it also happens when I have my period.

I’m in the midst of doing my taxes before MINT goes bust, and so I want to do that because it’s the main way I organize my money. And so, I need to do that before MINT closes it’s doors after tomorrow.

I felt so overwhelmed, but I was able to finish sending through the proposal.

I feel burdened because I’m:

• Not responding to this guy who ripped off my thesis

• Not responding to the girl about visiting her place to rent out her apartment

• Needing to do my taxes

• Freaked out about not being sure about how to own a car, or what that would entail exactly

• Feeling behind in:

  • Reading my ACA 12 step book

  • Doing all the online programs:

    • TBM

    • Marie Forleo

    • Sophia Amaruso

    • Amanda Frances

    • SweetPea

  • Finishing Leonie Dawsons Business Planner

• Feeling OCD in buying new Bibles, and not really digging deep into reading any of them (wtf is wrong with me?!)

  • I need to return that which I don’t read or use. And discard the ones I’m not actually reading. Is it possible for me to just go with ONE?

Tonight I’m going to another recovery meeting, and I’m on Step 3.5, basically explaining Step 4 without yet jumping into it.

So if that’s the case, I’d like to read up on as much of Step 3 as I can, and catch up on everything before I deep dive into Step 4. So basically, read all content pertaining til the END of Step 3.

That said, I’m also dealing with an ant infestation 🐜🐜🐜 in my apartment, which is seeeeeeriously creepy crawly. It’s beyond my comprehension how many ants I have. It’s freaky deaky.

But hey, at least I finished this design portfolio. I’m REALLY proud of it because it looks really good.

I’m also realizing, I really appreciate simple design aesthetics. Even though I’m currently using Shantell Martin and this feels really casual (and VERY different from my typical “design client stuff”), it feels more personal. More personal to J, anyways.

But yeah, I’m also coming up on my 10 year work anniversary working self-employed. Which I’m really excited about. I think SEPTEMBER is when I’ll be officially celebrating that!