9.11.2023 〰️ 3 Years Being Saved
Dearest J,
3 years ago, I was officially “saved” on 9.11.2020.
The Beginning. 9.11.2020.
One Whole Year. 9.11.2021.
Two Whole Years. 9.11.2022.
Three Whole Years. 9.11.2023.
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Today, I realized I needed to launch this website, fayth.org.
I had also gone to the library today, a new library mind you, and on a whim found stumbled upon this book, which basically summarized my life story prior to really coming to Christ. God. The truth.
There was something incredibly PROFOUND about finding this book. First of all, today’s my first day being officially “unemployed”.
Secondly, though I got a lot of things done, my sister had said a pretty hurtful comment to me, and my sister is a Christian. Involving my appearance to be frank. And somehow, it led me into a tailspin.
And then I saw this book. And this book summarized my entire time before coming to Christ, and that is that before coming to Jesus, I was part of deceptive Gospel of Wellness. The Gospel of Self Help. The Gospel of Perfectionism, and Self Image, and Control.
I jumped into the beginning and end, because it so beautifully summarized so much of what I wanted to say, but just couldn’t.
And waking up today, I just knew I had to launch this site, on the 3rd anniversary of being saved. And yet, I didn’t have a first official article to post, until now. Basically, the topic of my “testimonial” if you will.
I’ll get more into my testimonial in my next article, but I do believe God was winking at me when he put me in front of that book.
A large part of what I want this website to be is not only about faith, but the discovery of what true faith looks like, and what false faith looks like.
I’m super into Bible Art Journaling as well, so I would assume I would share some stuff here about that as well.
I do not want to hold myself back from what I post on here, but I do believe that faith has touched every single part of my life. From finances, to career choices, to relationships, to friendships, to health, and everything in between.
I would also like to share later the STORY of why I named this site fayth.org, which also is personal to me and I’m very grateful for the opportunity to have and hold this URL.
I suppose, in the meantime, here’s to a 3rd anniversary. It’s been a very rough last few years. Coming to God, for me, has not been an easy process. I’ve had to deconstruct a LOT of where I came from, which was very much coming out of a false narrative. I’m actually still trying to break everything down.
Because the last thing I want is to follow false gospel. I would really like to think that the attainment of true FAYTH (that’s faith without dogma) is something that will be a lifetime of discovering.
While I do not want to push people away who have other faiths, like say those who follow Judaism, or Islam, or even other faiths, I do believe that having faith in general is essential for not being a sucker on this planet we call “Earth”. Therefore, I’ve come to believe in God. Even though I came to it perhaps through a backdoor (first Catholicism, then agnosticism, then atheism, then ACIM, then New Thought to New Age, then Evangelicalism, then Fundamentalism which led to religious trauma, then deconstruction (Recovering from Religion), to reconstruction, and now … just plain … a connection to Jesus).
But all in all, I do think faith is important and I will continue to basically add to this regularly because my favorite thing to do is read the Bible and reflect on faith. It’s the thing that will hopefully keep me together.
Every time I used to write in a diary, I would begin with “Dearest J”.
Though I can no longer find the first journal where I put Dearest J (that’s another story, as I likely threw it out, along with all my other journals), I do believe it’s a play on words between “Journal” and “Jesus”. And J for short, which felt just more … personal somehow.
I dunno, I guess I’ll title this to J. For now. From now on, I don’t know. But for now, I believe I do need to dedicate this first post to J. Because he’s my G! Haha.
Ok that’s all for now. Also, I’m not sure if I’ll keep this anonymous or eventually reveal who I am, but for now, I think it’s best to keep this anonymous for now. It might keep it more pure for a while. I don’t want this to be about me anyway, but to others who might be helped by this site in some sort of way.
So for now, I’ll just end this with … my initial.
Amen ♡ xo, Fay
