Legal Frustrations

Dearest J,

I am seriously upset with someone I went to school with who took my entire thesis (a culmination of 2 years of my work) and posted it on his site as if it’s his own. In addition, me reaching out to my former school basically doesn’t care.

I’m at a loss of what to do.

This comes on the back of my 12 step recovery journey as I’m on step 8 and 9 and trying to go through amends. I am going to own my part, but I feel extremely frustrated.

Overall the feelings I feel are anger, bitterness, resentment.

It makes me question what the point of living is.

This is why I’m also happy to be reading the book “No Nonsense Spirituality” which discusses nihilism quite a bit.

What’s the point of all this? What’s the point of working so hard only to get ripped off? To have no one care? What’s the point? Where is God in all this, and if God is real, then why is believing getting me thrown in the fire and burned to the point of spiritual and emotional death?

I’m exhausted, J. I really am.

J, can you please help me?

I feel like I’m yelling into the wind, fighting against currents and can no longer keep up with them. I want to let my sails down, and I want to succeed without feeling like failure, a pushover, or a martyr.

I don’t know how to. And I feel if I let this go, this is me giving up. There must be a difference between giving up and letting go, but there’s a fine line there that I am toeing and I’m not happy about it.

Please help me, J.

♡ xo, Fay